blank slate

noticed something whenever i try to add a post in my blog. i do, have a lot in my mind that i would like to put in but..whenever it gets to that point, i seem to run out of words. it's like, everything i wanted to put in suddenly becomes caved in underneath all the ideas, and that there's nothing left in the surface but gibberish and senseless talk. is it always like that? i'm wondering if this is part of the withdrawal symptoms i'm having because i rarely have time to drink alcoholic beverages anymore. or maybe it's a sign that i'm slowly becoming institutionalized. i'm slowly losing my creativity. and that everything i've fought and cried for in the past few years..all my ideals.. all my theoretical assumptions..are slowly drowning in a pool of hackneyed ideas. yeah, well, maybe i just need to find a good topic to write about. but then again, maybe i just need a beer.