time has no answer

[absimilliard's adventures part four]

realizing that i can never find the answers by myself (see "myself in the future"), i figured that i may yet need the help of another individual.

yes, mars, my genius friend, who happens to look exactly like me.

i approached him as soon as the idea hit me.

"i'm gonna need your help again, dude. since i realize i cannot do this alone.", says me.

he agrees. of course he does.

the plan was, for both of us to keep track of events, while i travel back and forth to the future.

i hurried back to the time-warpin' beast of a machine to jump to the future, ten years from now, to talk to mars of the future, ten years from now, because we thought that ten years from now, with his help, we would have already figured out the missing formula to cancel out the theory a' redundancy.

here's the chronological order of events, as listed in my logbook.

1. i jump to the future, ten years from now.
2. i talk to mars of the future, ten years from now.
3. he has no answers for me, since he's been waiting for me ten years, since i disappeared.
4. i jump back to the past, a day after the present day. which means i did not exactly go back to talk to the present-day mars.
5. i talk to the "a day after the present-day-mars" mars.
6. he does not know anything, he just tells me that i spent one day in the future and i just arrived, with notes which is supposed to be from ten years after yesterday.
7. i jump back to the future, ten years from yesterday.
8. mars claims i went back a day after i left for the future, and did not show up until now, which is ten years after the day i first went to the future.
9. he does not have any recollection of my first trip to the future. all he knows is that he wrote in his log that i arrived a day after i first left for the future, claiming that i've been to the future, ten years after i first left.
10. i jump back to the present day, bringing the logbook of mars of the future, ten years from the present day.
11. mars tells me i never left, that i just sat in the machine, and got up again, only, my logbook has somethin' written on it, which, he tells me, peppered him with questions, since he never saw me write anything on the logbook.

i gave him his logbook from ten years from now, so i can give him an idea of what i'm talking about.

"i know fer sure that's my damned handwriting, but absimilliard, i haven't even written anything yet! i can't analyze the situation if i really don't know what's happening, and that, to my present-day knowledge, you haven't even left!"

hmm..

dammit, we're goin' around in circles and we're both of us blind.

an' i got to thinkin'...uhh..chronologically..

how can mars have an answer for me ten years from now if he's been waiting for me for ten years to show up with just one entry in my log saying that i'm from ten years ago?
how can mars have an answer for me a day after the present day if a day has passed an i got back just to tell him that i've been to the future talking to mars of ten years from now who does not have an idea of what i've already done?
how can mars have an answer for me in the present day, even if i tell him that i've been to a day from now and ten years from now, if, to his knowledge, i haven't left, and that showing him the logbook will only mess things up for him.

poor soul.

one last attempt. i need to go back to the future again, a day after ten years from now, to talk to mars of the future, ten years and a day from now.

jesus, this time travel thing is making me crazier every minute.

hmm..

12. i jump to the future, ten years and a day from now.
13. i talk to mars, ten years and a day from now.
14. he tells me that this is the first time i appeared, since i first left ten years and a day before now.
15. he does not have any idea what i've gone thru, except that his logbook says that a few seconds since i stepped inside the machine, i stood up and told him that i've been to a day after, ten years after, and ten years and a day after. then it indicated that i disappeared again.

this is ridiculous.

how can mars, ten years and a day from the present day tell me anything, if, he says i just hopped once

into the machine and this is the first time i reappeared?

16. i jump back to the present day.
17. i talk to the present day mars.
18. again, he tells me that i never left. but of course. i understand that.
19. i tell him everything i know, and everywhere (or everytime) i've gone.
20. WTF?!

okay, so i will never figure it out, even if i had an associate.

how can mars tell me something, if, after a day, he says it's the first time i reappeared?
how can mars tell me something, if, after ten years, he says it's the first time i reappeared?
how can mars tell me something, if, after ten years and a day, he says it's the first time i reappeared?
how can mars tell me something, if, whenever i go back to the present time, he says i never left?

please tell me that's not a goddamn loop.

looks like the theory of redundancy applies to both the past and the future.

the answers i am searching for, will not be explained in time, and by time.

i'm looking for the answers in the wrong place, the wrong time, and the wrong way.

looks like the answer i am looking for, must start with metaphysics. that einstein fellow could be right.

notes: things to do.

1. study euclidian geometry.
2. delve deeper into einstein's theory of relativity, and figure out how the lorentz transformations were derived from it.
3. take into account how the galilean transformation can translate to classical mechanics.
4. dig everything you can find about friedman's absolutism/relationalism and invariance/covariance theories.
5. don't forget friedman's hole argument and the spacetime theories viewed as manifolds paired with vector spaces.
6. read the paper by McTaggart, the unreality of time.
7. read about thermodynamics, the second law, which says somethin' about entropy,
8. consider the argument posed by statistical mechanics, which complicates things and practically rules out most theorems i may attempt to create.
9. compare newton's conjectures with leibniz's principle of sufficient reason and the identity of indiscernibles.
10. try out their bucket argument experiment. see if i can find a connection between those two principles.
11. figure out why the einsten theory vindicates the mach principle.

alas, my experiments have ultimately led me to do more research!

i ask myself this.."would math and physics be enough to lead me to the answers i seek?"